I woke up to that feeling again this morning, the awful feeling of not knowing what to do or what to say, I wish it were all just a terrible dream and I'd snap out of it very soon but so far, I'm still stuck in it. I can't even start to imagine how you feel right now, I don't even know how to console you. Losing a loved one hurts, no matter how much you say the words 'I'm good', my heart weeps whenever I hear you say that over and over again.
I don't expect you to cry out your pains now but somewhere deep within you needs release from all the built-up emotions, What can I do? Should I just be a comforting presence so you'll remember I'm here for you no matter what?
Should I keep talking so it keeps your mind off everything else?, although that is not likely but it could be worth a try,
Should I kiss you and hope momentarily, you remember you're loved by the people around you and you don't have to go through this alone?,
should I cry with you? Even if my tears will bring nothing more than sorrow to your heart.
Should I leave you alone? To gain solitude and heal yourself before I reach for you.
I'm still in shock, I can't wrap my head around what's happening yet.. In a split second, everything's changed and it was never even a consideration.
I love you and what hurts you hurts me and even if I can't feel what you are feeling, I can hear it in your voice when you speak, I can hear it in your silence when you don't speak, I can see it in your eyes when you look at me. The feeling that things won't be the same, the loss of the most important person in your life is bound to shatter your world.
But whatever happens, I'm here, I'm still here and I'll always remain here, silently reminding you that I'll be anything and everything you need me to be.
For you: Mi Mundo
