WILTING HEART

There are words in my heard begging to be free,Statements waiting for their escape, Actions silently reminding me to use 'em. Just sitting still, listening to the war going on in my head, Sometimes its hard to believe I'm still sane.. I hear voices that keep calling me, keep urging me, they keep compelling me.. Its hard to know the good from the bad when the echoes are truly endless.. I filter through the sounds, to that one voice that remains when all others have died down, it seem the saddest of them all, it keeps crying out for love and trust, I only wish I could reach out and communicate with her, why does she weep so much? While others keep arguing and urging, all she does is plead and weep, every day its becoming harder to hear her as her sound is getting weaker.. She should stop being sad, I'm happy and I'm doing great, I have the Love I need, might be from just one buh its enough to last a while... Suddenly,she answered me... 'No, you're not'... It took me a while to figure the sound was from my head, 'I am', I thought back.... ' You have too much sadness and anger in me,its draining up the happiness and love that's left', I was about to shout at the absurdity of those words when I realised, she's right!! All those past emotions don't fade away so easily, the build up to form the wall around me...they shield me from people and their lies, from promises that are never kept, from endless words with no actions, from disappointments and hurtful expectations. A while was all I needed, and I thought, why would I risk so much pain just for happiness? I'm pretty content right now and I like my life just fine; seeking for more will just be too much and then it is bound to all end, then I heard her, it was barely a whisper, but it was spoken a voice that was too familiar to me, my own! 'Maybe and Maybe not...You'd never know if You don't try'